#StaycationVibes

Its August people!

It might not be the best August that we have ever had but actually, if you disregard the weather and soak up the love that comes for the summer months then actually, its been a bloomin' good month!

So this month has been a crazy month at musers headquarters!

As you all know, my small child left home which was really tough. All of a sudden life changed and I was so far from ready for it. For those of you have experienced this, when the first one goes, its not easy, but you manage because there are other small people that need you.

When the last one goes though, thats a whole different kettle of fish and all of a sudden that independance, peace and quiet that you prayed for seems like its way too loud, way too much and the reality is, it was never what you wanted at all!

I know I have been quiet over the last few weeks, not because there wasn't stuff to write about but because there was a period of adjustment, and I'm still figuring that out if I am honest. The thing is

though, during that huge change, something else amazing happened that has also swallowed up so much time but has been life changing.

How do you cope with two lifechanging events in such a small period of time I hear you ask?

Well, you embrace them because the only constant in life is change and the only way to move forward is to embrace what is coming and make the best of everything.

As of Friday this week, the man I met just 6 months ago moves in with me officially. Its bonkers - I know -but one thing I have learnt over the last 30 something years is that when something is right, you don't waste time.

There are so many moments in life where things change with no warning and those who are left behind when tragedy strkes are left wondering what if.....

What if I had just asked the question I wanted to? What if I had taken the plunge and done the thing that terrified me? What if I put myself out there and trusted that it would go the way I wanted it to?

What if I had held my hands up and demanded that the world saw me and embraced me for who and what I was!

I spent so much of my life being frightened, and part of that came from being in relationships that were controlling and that didn't allow me to bite the bullet or take the plunge. I spent so much time being so scared that someone would say no that I didn't even consider the possibility that the right person would say yes. The very idea that someone would want me to be the best I could be and would encourage that had never occurred to me.

To have someone who treated me like the most important person in the world, who showed love and respect and wanted me to just be me was so novel that at first I didn't know how to deal with it.

6 months later I am happier than I ever thought possible.

6 months of laughing till I almost cried.

6 months of fun and silliness but also serious moments when needed

6 months of being made to feel like the most important person in the world

6 months of tenderness, intimacy and love

6 months of being welcomed into a family who have encouraged and embraced me

6 wonderful months that have told me that I have met the man that I will spend the rest of my life with.

Right now we are chilling on a week away with his family and whilst a holiday has been something way overdue, being able to spend the time to get to know them all properly has been amazing.

Right now, they are sitting watching Newcastle play Nottingham Forest while I write, and the lush thing is - there is no judgement. I am so comfortable in my moment with the candle lit and the meditation music playing in my ears whilst I write and they shout at the telly!

This is how I always imagined it could be.

Life is family and family is life and one of the beautiful things about that lies in the lack of judgement. Being able to just be around the most important people in your life is a beautiful thing and something none of us should ever take for granted.

I am incredibly lucky because I grew up with the most amazing people in my life and now I have even more people to add to my family. People who have welcomed me in with open arms and who have made me feel like one of their own since day one. What more could you ask for?

Life is good musers.

I am going back to my way overdue holiday and the man that I love and I am going to watch the footie and embrace those little things that make life worth living.

Have an amazing Wednesday.

Until next time...............